happy 2010

so, heres what i think: i think we use the "new year" as an excuse to start over.
theres really no way to "start over" - i mean really, its not like you can start brand new, clean slate, blahblahblah. the best we can hope to do is to learn from our past mistakes and make a conscious effort not to repeat them.

and resolutions? i make them, you make them, we all make them. but why? they all eventually get broken anyway. so really, why bother? is it just to put it out there so the universe can hear it? or is it to make our friends and family keep us to them? (switching responsibility from ourselves to others, which is probably not a good thing anyway...) or maybe its just tradition. who knows.
i made one this year-i promised myself that i wouldnt spend so much time needlessly worrying about stuff. yeah right, like thats going to happen. needless worrying is in my genes. suffice it to say, i broke my resolution yesterday. (surprise surprise) i have thus decided to embrace the worry gene. =) in fact, ive been trying to embrace all the quirks and idiosyncrasies that are me-my friends seem to love the weirdo me, so why shouldnt i? =)

mmm..i guess what im trying to blog out of my system is that, 2009 wasnt all bad. i learned a lot about myself, about my family, and about my friends. i ended the year on a very meditative and reflective note and id like to think im starting the year the same way. which is good, knowledge is power after all. im also trying to rid my little world of everything negative-i think it rubs off-and be more embracing of anything good and happy (even if it scares me sometimes).

so... happy new year! lets make this year better than last year =)